Lost

I've created this person i no longer know.  I've been pulled this way to belive this, pulled that way to believe that and lost myself. 

I once cared none, now I care to much, being pulled, getting lost. 

I stop, I regroup, start anew, be me, then I get pulled,  I get lost. 

Why is it so hard to just be.  Why do I mimic, why do I duplicate, why do I lose me